An Unexpected Horse and An Unexpected Solitude:
It’s been quite a roller coaster ride!!! Glorious Wyoming, and the joy my horses are experiencing here, are the overriding impressions of almost three months of being in the sweet, grassy. soft, silent, prairie part of Wheatland, WY!!
Only now, given that the much-very- gloomily-predicted-by-locals Wyoming Winds are blowing, seemingly at gale force 😦 , silence is a precious commodity.
So much happened so very quickly upon arrival. It is somewhat of a blur.
Two things stand out though.
About a week after I arrived, before all the horses got here, I received a message from the glorious mare Serenity’s human. She, after much struggle, had realized that she needed to let Serenity go. She explained that she needed to spend time with her son, her work and the cost and time of keeping a horse were getting way beyond her means. She wondered if I would take her here in Wyoming. Would I????? We spoke at length and she convinced me this was what she truly wanted. Four days later, the glorious Serenity arrived here in Wyoming…
…On the night of my birthday, October 6 🙂
I am still trying to fathom that after all the love I thought I’d lost and the grieving I’d experienced, missing that little red mare so very much….she is here with ME. She is mine!
I am inviting her human and her human’s son come visit her AND me in January. I plan to continue to get them out here as much as possible.
For the past year or more, Serenity was virtually stall-bound with very little turn out, grazing or even being ridden. When she first arrived here, she melded almost immediately into my little herd. She ran for the sheer freedom and joy of it…
…and then huddled back in her stall. Which she did often. I leave the stalls open for all the horses,except at grain time 🙂 so they can go in and out at will. She chose mostly “in”.
Now, at the two month point, she chooses mostly “out” and grazes, wanders and runs.
Her mane and tail, which had almost been lost, due to stress, are growing back in. Her eye is softening, losing the white sclera look of anxiety a horse can exhibit. I can “see” the smile on her face when she’s being brushed.
And when her breakfast and dinner are being served, she lifts up her sweet left front leg, curling it under her in excitement as she nickers for faster service! 🙂
This beautiful, kind mare who taught me how to be an improving human two years ago (See my second post on this site, Three Essential Lessons On How To Be An Improving Human; Taught To Me By Serenity, The Horse) is now having the horsey time of her life.
I am honored and privileged to provide it for her.
Enter the next piece of the story, the unexpected solitude. Due to a series of events too difficult to speak of here, I’ve ended up in the “middle of somewhere” on eighty acres of ranch, alone with three horses and two cats!
I’ve had to re-organize my priorities, my thoughts and my direction. It’s funny how life prepares one for the future, when one has NO IDEA what that future will bring! The Third Confession on this site, Revealing The Dirty Little Secrets That Happen At Barns, tells the story of how I received a crash course in barn management with my barn buddy, Felice. It tells of all our “I Love Lucy” moments, our mistakes and our triumphs. Thank Goodness!
Because here I am, managing a barn, all by myself. Somehow I just know what to do and how to organize it. Those previous months truly paid off!
I have also been blessed beyond belief with a network of support that appeared almost immediately after I found myself alone here. I now have a young woman ranch-handing for me, a young man (the son of my hay guy) as backup hand, a lovely woman who manages a lot of my household things like cleaning, a retired sheriff/contractor who has built my fences, my round pen, has hired others to build my pole barn and level my arena and good neighbors who stop by and check in with me, just to see if they can be of help.
They have been. Even if just to give sound advice on winter feeding and blanketing of Florida horses in their first Wyoming winter!
I am also blessed with a knowledgeable, kind vet and a wonderful farrier! Every horse person knows just how precious those two roles are. Now if I can just find the right horsey dentist…:)
I have supportive friends who call, text regularly with encouragement plus offer solid shoulders to cry on and others who send little care packages of love.
But the solitude is still intense.
The loneliness takes my breath away at times.
I know God is preparing me for something profound as I am caused to go even more deeply inside my soul, to learn more of who I truly am and what I’m truly made of.
I’m never entirely alone, of course, with three very personality-filled horses, two dear cat companions, the sunrises, the sunsets and oh, those Wyoming stars!
Life continues to teach me to “expect the unexpected”!